Astigmatism

This should be titled, "Getting Old."

Guess what I did today? I went to the eye doctor. As near as I can remember, the last time I had my eyes checked was in elementary school. Remember when they made you flip your head over to check for lice? Or when you had to put on those earphones and push a button to check your hearing? About that time period, I had my eyes checked. At which point they were perfect!

But recently things have been a little fuzzy for me. Not so easy to see the street signs until they are right up close.

So today I went to the eye doctor. And guess what he tells me? I have astigmatism. What? What the heck is that? I always assumed that was an old person problem, and here I am at 25 with an -ism! How did that happen?

And so, my big purchase of the week: Kate Spade glasses. Kate Spade's new ad: "Life not so clear? Buy my glasses!" Well, she would be cooler than that. But you get the idea.

Me and the Gym

My inner dialogue:

8am: I can't wait to go to the gym tonight.
9am: I am going to do like an hour on the elliptical and do arms and crunches today. I'm going to burn so many calories.
Noon: Hmmm... lean cuisine or delicious calor-ific chinese food? Well I'm going to the gym, and I'll just have egg drop soup.
12:30pm: Mmm that hot and sour soup was delicious
12:40pm: ... and those egg rolls
12:50pm: ... and the Moo Goo Gai Pan
1pm: ... and the fortune cookie. Luckily all of that added up to 200 calories.
1:30pm: Damn! Moo Goo has like 1000 calories!
2pm: I am going to work so hard at the gym today
3pm: I need a margarita. Who else needs a margarita?
4pm: Where has a good happy hour...
4:30pm: Seriously? No one else is free tonight?
5pm: Finally! I get to go home! Too bad I have to take the dog out or else I'd go straight to the gym.
6pm: I hate traffic. I want to sit at home and drink this bottle of wine. Oh damn I have to take the dog out.
7pm: Stupid addictive facebook. I still haven't taken the dog out.
7:15pm: How many calories do you burn walking a dog?
7:17pm: Go poo Parker!
7:25pm: My apartment is upstairs... that's enough calorie burning for one night.
7:27pm: Stupid Sookie and her skinniness
7:35pm: Hello 24 Hour Fitness.

Bored

I am such a lucky girl. I have an incredible life! I have amazing friends (20 years! Wow!), an incredible family, I'm getting married to the man of my dreams. Oh, and I can't forget my dog. I'm so full of goodness I could burst.

But somehow I'm bored. I feel like there must be more, that I'm supposed to do something bigger. I guess everyone feels that way, but I'm in a funny position. I've worked my way into an incredible job, the kind of job I wanted to do all my life. And that's weird, because now it isn't everything I wanted it to be. It's incredibly fulfilling and challenging and rewarding. It's also exhausting and hit-your-head-against-the-wall frustrating. I absolutely love it, and simultaneously I can't wait to move forward.

Now what do I do? I'm 25, and I'm doing the job I wanted to with all my heart. So now I'm looking into the future and it's all muddy again. It was so clear before!

I started to write a book. But who would be interested in reading about the work I do? I'm thinking about going back to a leadership track, but really that's just to lead someone in something. So what's that something? Half of me wants to take a few weeks and go to a yoga retreat. But how will that show me where to go from here? Ugh. I am absolutely full of questions with no answers.

And that's right where I'm supposed to be.

Smoothie Love

For my birthday, my wonderful sister gave me a fabulous gift: a Target giftcard. Oh the possibilities! I knew exactly what to get. A blender.

My little beauty blender is being put to good use! I bought it Friday, and have made 2 smoothies already. I've discovered that smoothies are a delicious way to get all the good healthy things you need in your diet. I know everyone else has figured this out already, but I am proud of myself for coming up with this on my own.

My first favorite smoothie recipe:
Fat Free Vanilla Yogurt
Vanilla Soy Milk
Frozen Blackberries

Yep, that's it. I haven't gotten to the super complicated smoothies yet with the whey protein and whatnot. Too complex! I'll just go with the fruit and other deliciousness for now. Yummy!

A little dusty

I didn't really know Michael Jackson. I came in during the second half of his life, when things weren't so peachy. I was sad when he died, but mostly just because he was a person who did great things.

But this moment changed it all. This is the most overplayed news clip all day (probably for the next month), but it deserves more than just being played for ratings. This is such a heartfelt moment.

When I was eight my dad died. I feel some kinship for this little girl. She's put on the world stage in all of her grief. What a huge moment, and I am so proud of her that she shared it. I wish I could make the last two weeks disappear for her. Because I can't, I am sending her deep warm wishes and a good hug.

Ode to quesadillas

I think quesadillas are a very under appreciated food. Sure, they have 100s of calories and plenty of fat and carbs. But they also have delicious warm gooey cheese, crispy tortilla and whatever you want to go with them. Guacamole, salsa, the world can be yours! So here's to the world's cheapest and easiest comfort food. Hip hip, quesadilla!

Alive and Well

Hello World! I am alive. I am busy and happy and thrilled about everything going on. I promise to write a post very shortly!

Oh and GO LAKERS!